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tear-streaked dreamer
18 December 2003 @ 09:46 am
I'll be coming home next year
Everything's alright up here
When I come down
I'll be coming home next year
Say good-bye
~ Foo Fighters

Finally moving out.

Add me back at findingbliss.

But I'm not going to erase this one. I might go back here from time to time. But I decided that my new lj will be much more personal to me.

Thanks so much to everyone.
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: Next Year + Foo Fighters
tear-streaked dreamer
07 December 2003 @ 08:16 pm
I'm seriously planning on having a new livejournal. Please comment here if you would like to be added in the friends list. But for *certain people* (guess who you are ;)), don't be surprised if you're added automatically. I won't let you go that easily. XP
Current Mood: determineddetermined
Current Music: Arcadia + Escaflowne soundtrack
tear-streaked dreamer
03 December 2003 @ 06:46 pm
22 days 'til Christmas.

Anne was so sweet yesterday. She bought me a red soccer ball at the book fair in UST. It was very spontaneous. She made me feel so special that day. ^_^

Spontaneous acts are so sweet. I like them.

Anyone want a Christmas card? Tell me your addresses by email: unholydeity23@yahoo.com.

stardust189, wait for my card. I'll surprise you with something. ;)
Current Mood: okayokay
Current Music: What'll She Look Like + Stephen Speaks
tear-streaked dreamer
26 November 2003 @ 06:47 pm
I know all of us have problems. They always come once, twice or several times in our lives. They're always there, no matter how much we do to take them away.

But isn't it that those trials are supposed to make us much stronger?

Committing suicide isn't the fucking solution.

Kaycee, a kabarkada... a very close friend in college took sleeping pills last night. We're seven in our group and the rest of us all got a text message saying something like this, "I'd just like to inform you that kaycee has left us... - her bessy". First reaction, what kind of sick joke is this?!. At first I ignored it for text messages are very deceitful. But then as the night passed on, we realized we all got the same message and it started to freak us all out. Her mother told Love, one in our group, that Kaycee hasn't arrived home yet. We all got more worried.

Then finally, Kaycee was home. That is, after going to the hospital. So we learned she took sleeping pills and "her bessy" is her bestfriend. It's a long story, but the gist of it is, she almost fucking died.

We don't know the reason of this all. But we have a terrible suspicion this is about Sidney again, her boyfriend whom I personally think doesn't deserve our friend. But still, nothing confirms that so we don't have any right to judge.

My two cents: Killing yourself is a freaking fucking bad idea to "solve" the tribulations in our lives. It's a very damn selfish act, to take away your own life because others will be very much hurt by that action.

So to you all, you're all my friends. And because I deeply care for my friends, I care for you guys. Don't make the same mistake. Make me happy. :)
Current Mood: pensivepensive
tear-streaked dreamer
25 November 2003 @ 07:33 pm
Today is November 25, 2003. Today is our month-anniversary. And I forgot it. :-/

Good thing he didn't got angry with me! He was so sweet, actually. He thoroughly surprised me in school by giving me a dozen of red roses. :) Times like this reminds me how much I love him.
Current Mood: lovedloved
Current Music: So Slow + Freestyle
tear-streaked dreamer
23 November 2003 @ 05:33 am
I want to get back on track.

I'm planning on finally rebuilding my website. It's long overdue, I know.

marred_clarity and thewhitediablo, what about that D/Hr site we're planning? I'm wondering what we can put up there so it'll be quite unique, in one way or another, with all those beautiful D/Hr sites...?

*sighs* I want to do something.
Current Mood: awakeawake
tear-streaked dreamer
21 November 2003 @ 08:00 pm
I want you to post anything that you want in reply to this entry.
A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, an opinion, a critique - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like.
It can be about me, or about anything you want.
Regardless, just use the "anonymous" button to post anonymously when you comment. I turned off the "log IP" option for this, temporarily. So whatever it is... get it off your mind.
Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

Absolutely thrilled about The Grudge and PoA. That's all.
Current Mood: curiouscurious
Current Music: Breakout + Foo Fighters
tear-streaked dreamer
16 November 2003 @ 05:41 pm
So we went to Intramuros last night. It was cool! It was like walking back in history with all those old-fashioned big and stoned houses. The security were also wearing the blue guardia civil clothes. And there were also calesas. We got to ride on one! XD Lol! It was my first time to be ride on a carriage pulled by a horse. XD

Then after that we went to Roxas. The street lamps were fairly amazing.

Today is the orientation in our LTS. Ah, cathechism again.

Tomorrow is Monday. I don't want to go to school.

And I have new icons! All of them are not mine as I don't know how to make mini-movie icons.
Current Mood: gack
Current Music: some old music running in my head
tear-streaked dreamer
15 November 2003 @ 09:57 am

mortal combat
faces of tortured
dead violent impact
suicide final act
human intolerance
mental torment
possible mass
grave died
in a useless war

~ "Mortal Combat" from Stored Images

created by xianvox and oizys

I saw the PoA trailer JUST last night. Now I can't hardly wait for the real thing! I think I may even go for Loony Toons to see the trailer in big screen. XP Ack!!! I want PoA the movie right now!!!

Oh right. Speaking of movies, I haven't watched The Matrix Revolutions yet. I don't know. I didn't like the second one like I did with the first one. I'm not really excited about the third one but I'd still like to watch it.

We're planning on going to Intramuros tonight/today/later/I don't know. I hope it won't rain so we'll push through with it. Sheila, my blockmate, said that we could even see guards wearing old Spanish clothes (like guardia civils) and we could even ride on a calesa! :D My mom said the lights are fantastic there every night. Can't wait!

Lastly, I have the latest Adobe PS and IR installed in my pc! Yay! Now I'm back to making icons! W00t!!
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
tear-streaked dreamer
08 November 2003 @ 06:27 pm
Welcome my new friend, smokysilhouette!

W00t! I have my original PC back! I'm so happy! So ecstatic! XD Now I'll just have to install Adobe again! Oh yeah, and start my fanfics all over again. *sighs* But I have it back! Woohoo!!! XD

Ah. I'm just so happy, never mind me. ^^

I can finally get back to making icons! Alright!

School's fine so far.

I'm guilty and I really feel bad. I'm such a bad bad bitch. I fell down again. God I'm so sorry.
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable